sad post because of insomnia
My love life is .. it doesn’t exist . Now.
As i have sometimes said, i’ve been with a boy for nearly 4 years. There have been ons and offs..but i can say that we grew up together. We broke up for the last time about 2 months ago. The main reason is because..we actually grew up. We became different and our attitudes weren’t the same as when we were very young. I think he’s a sweet boy and i hope that one day he’ll find the one girl for him..
And love..there wasn’t love anymore. There was affection..but not love. It’s the saddest thing one earth, when you become very close to someone but you have to let it go,because you can’t fake feelings . I’m not very sure it was the same for him,but his biggest flaw was not to say things,when words were so important..
Unspoken words, and also jealousy. And boredom. These are the things that kill love,i think.
sometimes i forget how writing things helps me to make up my mind
but i find it very hard.. because then i realize stuff i don’t want to realize.